So I'm still terrified most of the time. It is my normal state of being after years of financial insecurity and now this foreclosure hanging over my head. But regardless of that, I know my family loves me, my daughter is happy and healthy, my cats are pretty damn awesome, and I'm having the time of my life as a cam model/blogger/sex toy shopper. Who knew a few orgasms a day could improve one's life so dramatically?
I want to believe that this year will be better. That I will finally get some security and safety. That everything that has been rotting my stomach and giving me heart palpitations will be gone. I'm tired of it. I think that if we could just pay our bills and expenses, and have a little left over for saving and entertainment, we would absolutely thrive as a family. And with Hubby's career track on the road it is, and my cam work going so well, that could happen, if we are just given a chance.
I refuse to make resolutions in the new year, but I certainly strive at all times to learn from my mistakes, better myself intellectually and emotionally, be a better partner and mother, and enjoy life as it is. I am hoping that with the new developments in my life, and the cathartic process that is this blog, I will be able to achieve my goals and continue to grow as a person.
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