How to fix what isn't necessarily wrong?

"So does this pay this bills or is just for fun?"
"How much do you make doing this bb?"
"Do you make the big bucks bb?"
"You must make mega cash with that banging bod mama!" (My personal favorite.)

If you haven't already gathered, those were not so thinly veiled guesses by members at the cam site at how much money I make modeling. I'm pretty honest. "Not much." For instance, last night I made $1.56. Well actually considering I had to turn the house heat on, my space heater on, two lamps on, use the internet, my radio, a computer, the lights in the bathroom while I was getting ready, the energy I used making coffee...

I probably lost money last night.

But at least I made the effort right?

Damn work ethic.

That's the same work ethic that drove me to go into my telemarketing gig Friday night even though I was a mess. Should have known the migraine was going to hit any minute and called out. Instead I went in and ended up running out about an hour and half later and losing most of my weekend to an unrepentant headache. Awesome.

What confuses me though, is these men are so effusive in there appreciation and assurance that I must be a big earner and doing a wonderful job, and then they never take me private.

What the hell?

Mixed messages much?

I've asked my "regulars" on more than one occasion what it is that I am doing "wrong. " No one can put their finger on anything I should do or not do to get more private sessions. It seems to simply be luck of the draw.

So tonight I will paint my finger and toe nails, wear stockings and garter belt and maybe even a corset and a come hither gaze and hope a make a ton of money.

Wish me luck.

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