Hooping, Weight Loss, Patience and Kindness

I know I really haven't been posting much recently. I've been busy, but mostly I haven't posted because I didn't know what to say. Life keeps going in cycles. Sometimes it is good and I am doing great, and sometimes it sucks and everything crashes down. But I'm really working on making sure the down times aren't overwhelming.

One of the main things that has helped me is hooping.  Yes, hula hooping, for grown-ups. Hoop dancing is another name for it.

No I'm no expert, but I'm learning, and enjoying myself while I do. I'm getting better balance, my hand strength is improving and I've lost a ton of weight. And as soon as I get some money together, I'm buying this.

I'm perfectly willing to pay for it with donations if you are feeling generous, I have PayPal. ;-) Kidding. Sort of. I really need money.

I got braided hair extensions in my mohawk for kicks. Brown matched to my own colour, and purple, because, purple. I wear my septum ring a lot more often now. And I'm getting a new tattoo this coming Saturday, another butterfly. I haven't had one since June 15th.

Cam modeling has picked up. I've added sph (small penis humiliation) to my repertoire. I came to the realization that if this is what someone really needs to get off, what was I accomplishing by denying him? But I still won't allow anyone to try to humiliate me.

I'm trying to be gentler to my husband. It isn't always easy, but I'm doing my best to avoid being "the Provoker" in the relationship because I know that can only come out badly. He can't be the partner I want him to be if I make him miserable.

My life is still full of uncertainty. I always want to believe that what I am told is truth, even when historically that is not true. My daughter is a delight, even when she pees on the floor. My garden is a tangled mess of colour and life and praying mantids. My health is improving.

Now if I could just make more money...