Cycles

If you have been reading my blog for a while, it must be abundantly clear that my mental status varies wildly. Hell, just look at the titles of my posts and they run the range from laughing hysterically to almost suicidal depression. And the content only backs up those first impressions.

Yes, I have issues.

Currently I'm on an upswing. I've really thrown myself into hoop dance. I've gotten a very wild new hairstyle. I'm caming regularly again and actually enjoying it. I've reclaimed my virtual space and am doing what I want with people who seem to share my tastes and are willing to pay me for it.

My charity group is doing great and I'm on the Board of Directors now.

My wildflower child just turned 4-years-old and I'm in better shape now then I was before I had her.

I'm getting the nerve up to contact a hoop making company for advice on what to purchase when I get the money, so I have fully custom made hoops by professionals instead of only my own handmade and not exactly right hoops.

Interestingly, as I'm feeling better, I came across this article, "Psychology's answer to trolling and online abuse" today.

Luckily I've yet to experience sustained consistant online abuse. But the short bursts of it I have gotten in cam rooms has been enough to know that people are mean when they are anonymous.

But right now, today, I'm good. I'm covered in bruises from drilling shoulder reversals (almost have them) and wish I could lose another five pounds. But I'm good.

I might steal the Nightmare Moon mini figure I got for my daughter for her birthday though. Because it is hella cool. It is super fucking awesome actually.