After years of trying and being as supportive as I am capable of being, it is over.
Time for us both to move forward, work on being better individuals and co-parents but not partners.
Trying to get it together
So if you are a member or a follower or whatever, you know I haven't been on cam in, oh, forever. I couldn't get online because I was getting up at 5:00am to drive Hubby to work for about six weeks, and there were the nights he wouldn't go to bed at a reasonable time and I don't go online when he is awake out of respect to him, and there has been exhaustion and headaches. And then when I finally did try to get online, every time the camera connected a fuse blew shutting off all the power in my performance area.
It is like I'm cursed.
Unfortunately we are now down to 1/4 tank of heating oil again thanks to the super cold winter, and my husband still has $1400 of fines to pay in the next few months. So... I need to get back online. I'm just not sure how to do this with the fuse problem and the fact that it like 50F in my basement and I can't afford to turn the oil heat on to heat it.
Ugh.
I've also been really lax with my hoop practice and need to get back into that ASAP. But I ran out of Vitamin B2 which is part of my headache protocol and now I feel like shit.
So this is me whining and trying to get my ass in gear to make some money, get some exercise and hopefully feel better about myself and my situation. If you aren't into witnessing a pity party, feel free to keep on moving. ;-)
It is like I'm cursed.
Unfortunately we are now down to 1/4 tank of heating oil again thanks to the super cold winter, and my husband still has $1400 of fines to pay in the next few months. So... I need to get back online. I'm just not sure how to do this with the fuse problem and the fact that it like 50F in my basement and I can't afford to turn the oil heat on to heat it.
Ugh.
I've also been really lax with my hoop practice and need to get back into that ASAP. But I ran out of Vitamin B2 which is part of my headache protocol and now I feel like shit.
So this is me whining and trying to get my ass in gear to make some money, get some exercise and hopefully feel better about myself and my situation. If you aren't into witnessing a pity party, feel free to keep on moving. ;-)
Going Bald For Charity
On March 15th, 2014, I will be shaving my head bald to raise funds for St. Baldrick's, a volunteer run charity that raises funds for childhood cancer research.
If you are interested in supporting my fund raising efforts, my participation page can be found here.
Not only is this a great charity and cause, but it allows me to start the year off with a complete change and a goal to give back to this world.
Any support at all will be greatly appreciated.
If you are interested in supporting my fund raising efforts, my participation page can be found here.
Not only is this a great charity and cause, but it allows me to start the year off with a complete change and a goal to give back to this world.
Any support at all will be greatly appreciated.
Starting 2014 off with a bang!
So I won the hoop. And Deanne Love of HoopLovers.com is now following me on Instagram. As are other professional hoopers.
I started the day off with the first tattoo on the first day of the new year by the same artist who did my chest oh so many years ago.
Then this evening I received the edited copy and release form for a story I submitted to an anthology about breastfeeding older children. Seriously a great start to the new year.
I started the day off with the first tattoo on the first day of the new year by the same artist who did my chest oh so many years ago.
Then this evening I received the edited copy and release form for a story I submitted to an anthology about breastfeeding older children. Seriously a great start to the new year.
The suspense is killing me
I have entered a contest to win a hoop from a woman and company I really admire and seeing her like my entries is just killing me.
I really want that hoop.
End of the year
So there are only a handful of hours remaining in 2013 where I am located. And the end of this year could not come fast enough. Some things have been great, but some things have been so awful I just want to run away from them as fast as possible.
Good things:
8 tattoos that I absolutely love.
My weight loss and improved health and fitness.
Hooping.
My Angel suspension in July. (Even if some friends think that's completely fucked up.)
New friendships, and deeper connections with older friends.
Learning how to make snicker doodles.
The Doctor Who 50th anniversary special(s).
My community service was in a Franciscan monastery.
Shit things:
My brother getting arrested after threatening to kill my mother and her dog and a whole bunch of other offenses.
Losing so much time due to headaches and illness even as I get healthier over all.
My husband getting arrested after swearing to me he'd been sober for over a year.
My child deciding green food is poison.
Multiple stray cats being hit by cars on the road in front of our house.
Not getting the promotion I've worked so hard for over the last several months, even though I clearly deserved it.
Being removed from the lives of some people I cared deeply for, because the feeling was not reciprocated.
I'm sure I could add much more to both lists, but that's pretty much where I'm at right now. My plan is to start 2014 with a walk-in tattoo by the artist who did the roses on my chest oh so many years ago. She's doing snowflake and mandala pieces tomorrow and I intend to be there at least an hour early to make sure I get in and can pick something wonderful. Maybe honey bee related. Or with lots of circles to reference my hooping.
And I'm probably going to cut down one or both of my polypro hoops because I just feel like 40" is too big anymore.
Might do a 30 day "on body only" hooping challenge to work on posture, balance and core strength.
I will continue to do planks as I think of them.
I will continue to be a good friend and family member.
I will continue to love my daughter with abandonment.
I will try to make more art.
I will try to help my community more.
I will NOT make any resolutions.
I will be kinder to myself.
Happy New Year.
Good things:
8 tattoos that I absolutely love.
My weight loss and improved health and fitness.
Hooping.
My Angel suspension in July. (Even if some friends think that's completely fucked up.)
New friendships, and deeper connections with older friends.
Learning how to make snicker doodles.
The Doctor Who 50th anniversary special(s).
My community service was in a Franciscan monastery.
Shit things:
My brother getting arrested after threatening to kill my mother and her dog and a whole bunch of other offenses.
Losing so much time due to headaches and illness even as I get healthier over all.
My husband getting arrested after swearing to me he'd been sober for over a year.
My child deciding green food is poison.
Multiple stray cats being hit by cars on the road in front of our house.
Not getting the promotion I've worked so hard for over the last several months, even though I clearly deserved it.
Being removed from the lives of some people I cared deeply for, because the feeling was not reciprocated.
I'm sure I could add much more to both lists, but that's pretty much where I'm at right now. My plan is to start 2014 with a walk-in tattoo by the artist who did the roses on my chest oh so many years ago. She's doing snowflake and mandala pieces tomorrow and I intend to be there at least an hour early to make sure I get in and can pick something wonderful. Maybe honey bee related. Or with lots of circles to reference my hooping.
And I'm probably going to cut down one or both of my polypro hoops because I just feel like 40" is too big anymore.
Might do a 30 day "on body only" hooping challenge to work on posture, balance and core strength.
I will continue to do planks as I think of them.
I will continue to be a good friend and family member.
I will continue to love my daughter with abandonment.
I will try to make more art.
I will try to help my community more.
I will NOT make any resolutions.
I will be kinder to myself.
Happy New Year.
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